Just like the day after graduation.... the world is your oyster, limitless options, the feeling you could do anything and that anything was possible. Just like that - except different. Back then, when I looked to the future it was endless. I couldn't wait to see what hid behind every corner and the adventures that were just waiting for me. These days I don't see the future quite so endless and I smile when I think back and recall those hidden surprises and adventures. I don't long for them quite like I used to.

Well, it isn't the day after graduation and I'm no longer that wide eyed, somewhat naive 17 year old with no money but lots of hope. Well, I guess I've still got no money and perhaps hope tempered with caution. But I am at a place where I'm looking toward the future. Again. Things have changed for me. My days are no longer spent schooling the girls. They are off in public school, making friends, building lives. Having fun. I love it. I love it for them.

But me. Hmm... well, I'm at a new place. I suppose you could say I have options - with a few limitations attached. I want to do something of value. I want to earn some money. I want to find fulfillment.

Am I asking to much?